I have felt for so many years that something isn’t right with me. Something’s wrong. Physically. Sometimes emotionally. Since meeting Vic, I have come a long way. He agreed that something was wrong and fought for me (at times with me) to try and get to the bottom of it. In 2005, our Orthopedic told me something was wrong. In 2005, my Rheumatoidologist agreed. It’s taken a while but I’ve been better in this last year than I have been in 15. (This doctor at least told me up front that what he thought I had (Psoriatic Arthritis, an auto-immune disease) but if it turned out that none of the treatments worked, we would keep trying until we found something that did).
But, something’s still not right.
I watched Oprah yesterday and she was re-airing a show from last week about hormone imbalance, perimenopause and menopause. Watching these women I was watching myself. Listening to the women who are suffering from hormone imbalance was like listening to myself or reading my journals!
Years of not sleeping well at night. Years of feeling like crap. No energy. Depression un-improved by anti-depressants. Brain fog. Night sweats. Feeling overwhelmed. Feeling unhinged. Not knowing whats's wrong but knowing something definately is. Chronic fatigue. Chronic illnesses. Excess facial hair. Either too much desire or none at all. Anger/aggression.
I thought to myself, "Could it be?!"
Today Oprah spoke with a few women who'd seen the show and I wondered, "Can hormone imbalance cause chronic pain?"
I went to Google and typed that thought in. While I didn't go into every result, the word "yes" appeared! My mind began to race as did my heart rate.
But I've been better since starting the iv's last January.
"Can Remicade affect hormone levels?!" I Googled that phrase and while there's nothing conclusive, the iv med I'm on can affect hormone levels in some patients.
What if the Remicade was improving mine to an extent?
Some people's auto-immune disease type arthritis, Fybromyalgia and Lupus greatly improved or went away after starting hormone replacement therapy.
Could this actually be my problem? I don't recall if my hormone levels have ever been checked. I thought a few years ago that I may be in perimenopause but was told by my then primary and my obgyn that I wasn't. But how did they come to that conclusion without tests? By looking at my age?
I don't think I'm already in perimenopause. But I am wondering if my hormones could be out of wack. So much of what I heard yesterday on Oprah clicked. If there's a chance that they are and if there's a chance I could be well and healthy, then I've got to explore this possibility. I need to look into this myself before bringing it up to any of my doctors. (YOU are your best advocate when it comes to your health).
Let the research begin.