I have missed my Nana more in the last four and a half years than in the ones immediately following her death. I'm not sure why. While this pic always stays where it is, there are 2 others, family pics, that I sometimes have to put away for while because I miss her so deeply I sob each time I look at those 2 pics.
On facebook, my cousin has been posting lots of pics and 2 recently have my Nana in them. (One has me, Nana, my mom, her & another cousin in it and the other is of the first 3 born in the family with Nana). Seeing them is stirring up my heart again. (And annoying me since she identifies Nana as Grandma - Nana HATED being called Grandma & everyone knew/knows that).
My Dad died 30 years ago this month. Mom & Dad were divorced when I was 6 months old. I grew up with my Mom, my Nana and to an extent my Aunt. For the most part it was me, Mom & Nana. She was my grandmother and my parent.