Yesterday, I wrote about my recent writing struggles here and not knowing where it was coming from or what to do about it.
Yesterday afternoon, during an email exchange with bestie G, I had an epiphany, which I did elude knowledge to in yesterday's post, but it didn't hit me until I was hashing it out with G. As I read one of her replies, I thought to myself that it it feels like this writing block is final and something has died inside of me.
And then I thought of Ceasar kitty.
I stopped writing (again) to take care of him starting in November and cared for him right through New Years, until I had to have him put down on 1/2. And once we found out he had cancer and it was only a matter of time, it was awful time for me.
I'm in mourning.
I know 'he was just a cat' some would day but I was in my early 20s when I got him and now I'm nearly 40! (That's not helping the writers block either btw - I'm 16 months away from 40?!) Being home day in day out for years due to illness is lonely. My kitties are my companions. And I love them very much. He was one of my very first kitties and now all the boys are gone. I have my girl kitties, and I am beyond thankful for them, but, it's still so strange that all my boys are gone.
And my Ceasar was such a sweet and beautiful boy. I miss him dearly.
As much as I maybe should have realized it already, I'm thankful for this unexpected epiphany. It's helped put things in perspective.
Have you had any unexpected epiphany/aha moments of late? Share with me in the comments below!